Roller Coaster

So I'm not usually one to complain. I mean, what do I really have to complain about? I am technically healthy, and I'm very happy with my life. So what the heck is bugging me? I am 36 weeks pregnant and diagnosed with pre-eclampsia. I can't wear shoes, and it hurts to walk sometimes because the swelling is so bad. I get constant headaches and nausea from my blood pressure being so high, and this awesome pain in my ribs. Every time I see my doctor he tells me, "You won't be pregnant much longer." Yeah, I've been hearing that for about 2 weeks now. I was admitted to the hospital last week for three days because my issues were getting worse. So my doctor scheduled me for a c-section on Tuesday 4/21. I was nervous because I was going to be 36 weeks along and there could be issues. But I was excited to hold my little girl and have my body start returning to normal. Then on Friday my doctor told me that I hadn't gotten bad enough to need to continue with the plan. Which is good news, I swear. But I saw the end, I could start getting better, I could hold my little princess. The end was ripped away from me once again. I have to accept it and move forward. I've gone this long right? So now unless I get worse, I will be having my little girl on 5/14, my originally scheduled due date. I have to see my doctor 3-5 times a week, depending on how I feel for blood pressure and lab checks to make sure I'm not getting any worse. I don't know how I've been doing it, but I have been trying to see the bright side in all of this despite how I feel sometimes. It has truly been an emotional roller coaster, and she isn't even here yet.

Is there really a sweet life? If that's what it's really called, then I have truly found it.

Try it

Thought I would give this a try! More to come!